💙 To #L💛VE

Hello my dearest ones ,

So what happens when you think you found your #TrueLove ? Yes , the one that crosses every item , every criteria in your list ? The generous , kind , caring , thoughtful , cheerful, the one that makes your day brighter , the one that thinks of a thousands ways to make your day shine brighter than already is , the one you wake up in the morning and he is there fixing your breakfast and it brings it in bed among with a flower ,how sweet is that ?  … that person that you know you can count on it no matter what, he is there to support you , lift you up and make you the center of his world … all this euphoria in just a few moments … and then … ” I love you ” … he says it out loud … wait …why don’t I  feel it too ? All this overwhelmed me… and suddenly i´m not myself anymore , all this perfection , joy , enthusiasm , happiness starts to make no more sense … I believe everything falls into place when there is chemistry , then it doesn’t really matter what the other is doing . Everything is going to fall into place , there is no good or bad , no right or wrong , there are no rules, all is marvelous and pure joy and pure happiness and blissfulness . And without that Elysium, for me is just sad … I want to live and feel what the other is feeling, that’s the most beautiful feeling in the world … to share the magic that is going on in your heart , in your soul, at the core of your being …You can waste your time trying to make things happen, or move on and know it’s not right.Don’t push something that’s not there. Don’t waste your time on something deep down you know will never happen. Whether it’s timing, chemistry, emotional unavailability, it isn’t there.It´s sad because I can’t feel it, because I don’t feel the same for the person who is truly having that amazing tingling in the stomach and butterflies ,mixed with craziness and all the stupid things we aim to do when we are in LOVE . I know you worked hard for it , but one day , dear soul , you will meet that person that will turn your world around , just as I will too. 

Womens , they don´t want nice , they want a punch in the f*cking heart  ❤

This quote gets into my mind , due to the last movie i’ve seen called 1 Night   ,I recommend it , it´s a nice movie , but make no expectations Sourire 🙂 

Thank you so much for reading my stories blondies ^_^  !

Love Gx ❤ 

 

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The importance of feeling important 

        Sometimes life feels like a flat line. Nothing is terrible. But nothing is really great, either. You live your days. You fight for the weekends. Time passes. And then it’s back to the beginning again, to a monotonous blue Monday when you return to your numbness, to your flaky job, to daydreaming for hours about all the things you wish you could change. You think about what you should be doing instead of all of this, because whatever this is isn’t working. And as the days crawl along, draining all the lush creativity you thought had once defined your character, the more stuck and uninspired you get.
You want to shake free from this terrible web. You want to rediscover that part of yourself that once was so steadfast and full of ideas, when everything you ever wanted to do in life seemed so possible. These days it just feels whatever now. It’s like the color in your mind has disappeared. And you miss it, that lust for life and how it felt when your mind was challenged. This is when you miss college the most, when you were surrounded by intellectual energy and writing and books and conversations that made you think and see the world differently. But college was so long ago. That passion didn’t stay alive. The rut had won. And now everything is the same.
This is also when you miss having great conversations with people who have done crazy beautiful things in life who can teach you things and make you discover things about yourself that you never saw before. Now you sit in a room full of people having the same flat conversation that you’ve heard a million times and you’ve never felt more alone or misunderstood.
So you dive into books and music and wine, trying to immerse yourself in new light and big thoughts so you can reimagine your place in the world, your truth, your purpose. But it isn’t that easy to make those kinds of changes sometimes. It’s actually really hard to overcome feeling irrelevant. When your place in the world feels like a void, it feels as though at any second you’ll just disappear and nobody will know and it won’t make any bit of difference.
I wanted to matter in this world.
I wanted my mind and my creativity to make a difference. And I knew I was important but I wanted to feel important. And nothing I was doing was granting that. It was my own fault. I was a broken record. I needed to break free from the drudgery. I needed to find my spark again. And I needed to stop feeling like a victim because I had lost myself, because I wasn’t challenged, because I had become stagnant and continued to surround myself by people who I had zero connection with, and because I kept working a job that numbed me. But I refused to feel irrelevant anymore.
It wouldn’t all change overnight. But you have to believe in it. That’s how the first step goes. And as impossible as it might seem, whatever is it for you in terms of your greatest happiness or achievement, just know that it is possible.
But you have to wholly immerse yourself in this new world. You have to surround yourself with people who are passionate about things–people you can have deep conversations with and those you can learn something from. And if this means rethinking the people in your life because they don’t make you feel good, because they make you feel empty, because nobody has anything positive to say, then it is what it is. You have to do things that will challenge you, make you think, make you ask questions, and will help you embrace your talents again (or might even help you discover new ones). Because when you do all of this, when you refuse to feel stagnant and unimportant by doing everything differently than how it’s been, you will find yourself again.


Something in you will reignite. And you will rediscover the magic of possibility in this illuminated new world that reminds you just how important you and your talents really are.

Love , G x ❤️